Thursday, June 30, 2005

wtf!!! this pick up line is like....

wtf.... this is a pick up line i heard from my senior...it like...WTF??....lolz.....
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guy:hey urm, miss? can i ask u something?
ger:yes?
guy:i dream of u yesterday nite in my dream, in my dream, i was calling u darling.
ger:shock*
guy:so is it okay for me to know ur name so that i can call u by ur name 2 nite when i dream of u again?
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wtf... cant belive this is possible...and he managed to pick up girls wif this???
sianz...
i was never lucky wif galz... lol... feel damn sianz...
while my frenz left the bus... i resume to blast music in my ears... as usual... thats when i felt alive... too addicted 2 the feeling of numbing of my self.... too much.... looking outside the window at the falling day.... nothing feels as great as this for now.... i really is damn bored wif stuff... really.... while ppl are living now... i juz dun wanna care any more... and stop flooding me.... i had enough... and when i snap... this wont be nice....bty, u cant do anything at all to mr now...coz u cant do anything, u decide 2 flood me....this is childish.... immature.... i really wanna be left out of this now...seriously... dont wanna snap like in sec2... or sec1..... tiring.... numbing still rkws.... seriously rkws... haha....bty... really juz wanna be alone lar....

Wednesday, June 29, 2005

i have to be patient...

ok.....i really have to control myself... not let hasty decisions get the best of me again.... lolz.... need 2 wait...coz wat girls want is very important... u have to have something they want in u, if not its sorry we can only be frenzs and then running away from u...lolz....


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wat girls want(not in order of importance.... coz im not a girl...)
1:sense of security
2:treat them well
3:able to dote them
4:can remember their birthday and when u meet her and wat is the first gify u give to her
5:money
6:dependency
7:looks
8:guai or not
9:can accompany them most of the time
10:sociable
11:figure
12:loyalty
13:sincerity
14:good nature and back ground
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well, thats all i know so far...diaozzz.... like not very helpful here...hehe....
me got none of the above... so must train.... train real hard then when the time has come, it is time to take action... seems like im not the only guy in claz that is going for someone.... coz someone seems to be planning something... read this and ure know...

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yes..... some one is planning this thing... i got this from him....nvm... its still too early to strike... juz need to wait..... eventhought it may seem like eternity...

Friday, June 24, 2005

looking at stars...lol

bored man! nothing to do during even weeks of friday.... got astro atr 6 but free from like, 3?
lol... bored... now at library using com coz me dun wanna bring lappioe....haha....and like irritated with this pop up"computer booking" shit on my screen as iblog... lol... cant even see wat am i typing now... wow.... 1st time spar yesterday... lost badly... frenz scold me for giving so many opening, oie.... first timer le... but its nice 2 feel adrenaline flooding throught my body... nice... addicted... seems like besides dota, kick boxing too gives me da same feeling...lol.... bored man... when u can see something infront of u and u dun hav the courage and the ability to achieve it, it feels sucky.... i gotta admit... lol.... sianz.....bored man... hehe... gsd is finally dled fin 2 day!!!! haha..... hope ill be able 2 watch it soon... but 2molo morning got work... sianz again.... stars... hmmm... wonder wat ill see for 2nite?? but looking forward to meet dine, ylk n regina...lol... haha... gotta admid now that me dun feel attached 2 4/6 liao, me feel quite freed.... atlease... but notheless, thx MG!!!! ur da best fren/clazmate any one can ever hav. bored... wanna do something meaningful... but seems like im bored now.... np ambassador... dint get throught..lol... bored... maybe they feel my commitment is not enough... lol... or maybe is because of that question... maybe, i dunno... bored.... getting to know more claz mates, trying my best to know every one... but so far it seems like i haven even tok 2 some ppl yet... mostly gals... lol.... nvm... trying harder to know ppl.... thats my aim!!!!

Thursday, June 23, 2005

so wat!!!!

really, so wat!!!! wat bout me saying those stuff? wat bout that? so? i really wanna ask, do u guys ever treat me like a human b4? no! not at all! so wats wrong? y cant i say that? u dun wan me 2 say?i juz say wat i like! wats wrong?i hack care liao. im bored ok? i wanna say wat is my business... wtf has it got to do wif u? u wanna care is ur business.... even if u guys not gonna meet me 4ever, so wat? i am bored. so bored. life has more meaning then meeting secondary school frenz, go ahead, scold me a mother fucker! scold! i dun care! fuck ur own ass! go ahead! if u dun like it find me personally...

i am not so soft now, trust me, if u wanna fuck, i will fuck back....

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

tired shag and bored

bored man..... its really bored... now requirting ppl to play Np Wcg... wonder who wanna join my team... bored.... tired.... wanna lose weight thought.... now trying real hard... lol....sianz.... really sianz coz its like i got my pay and then no more liao.. so litter... i need a more pay job... but where???.,.,., i dunno.... ganna flu since sat... sux... still haven recover yet... sianz.... class dun understand any shit... bored.... dunno wat to do... bored....

tired shag and bored

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

"her"

juz reach home.... saw her again at the bus stop where i take my bus home... long time never see her, she has grown more pretty.... that makes me lesser want to go and talk to her. i was with my classmates... talking crap as usuall.. then 1 of my fren came, then she came too.l.. sitting at the seat at a pillar infront of me... over heard one of my fren's classmate talking,"hey, ur girlfriend come already."..... i was like.... i really donno... i really dunno wat to do or to react... but to sit there and continue to crap.... crap about the stuffs i made my fren in to at a lecture eariler.... i felt the void, the pain, the suffering flooding me again, not because she rejected me, but because she is now attached... to one of my best fren..... i felt the void in me, slowly consuming me again.... un able to react or do anything left me hopeless down there, i guess she must have saw me, but choose to stay there..... because she wants to keep a distance from me.... i am juz too low class.... i felt like im nothing, nothing at all, she is such a ravshing lady,but im juz a fat ugly jerk,i am poor and not worthy of her, while my best fren is rich, is successful in lossing weight and oso not a bad character... im juz too ditto... too arragon... too vulger... and too insencertive... thats y at the claz bbq i am a spoil sport... sry ppl..... really sry... i hav let loose the most ugly side of me again.,... i really hope there is someone this time to hold me back... but in this new enviroment theres none.... i have no one that leashs me back... no one... and the feeling of having ppl and espically "her" leaving... is unberable..... i really feel pain... like a scaple cutting my heart in to 2, splitting it from left to right, letting blood flowing around the place.... making my heart feeling more pain then ever.... i cant breath... this is too hard on me... Y is it always like that? i really cant feel a thing now... juz when im now mixed well wif my claz mates... stressing about the on coming common test... this thing is back to haunt me..... Y....Y this.... i wanna talk it to some one... but who can i talk to?... i donno..... i really donno.... i pray time will wash this away and ill not wanna feel this pain again......

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Np Ambassdors!!!

WOW! it nice!

finally there is a kind of cca which i can express out my lame ideas and still be accepted!!!
thats nice! lol, gt thank that fren of li chiu for dragging me into it... but poor li chiu iks sick 2day...lol.... hmm.... its still nice, get to interact wif ppl from other depts! from red(real estate business), mce(mobile computering engineering) n oso few ppl fr ei(engineering info), BS(business studies)...

best of all is the games allow me to express out my natural self! the lame and crazy me which has being shrouded by the anti-social shield i cast on myself recently... hope i get to be acpt into it....

Thursday, June 09, 2005

Wrecking the topic up again...lol

ok.its long since im gonna tok about this again but i think it should be time again.... im kinda tired thought but nvm... juz this last once im gonna rack up this topic so far god knows when ill do it again.....

lol
i increased weight... sianz.... in poly but no $$ and no fgure.... sianz man... im the only over weight in my claz le sianz man... feel really sianz... now trying to save money and cut down weight at the same time.... aft gotten my $$ fr work place gonna go back to np kick boxing.... coz no $$ recently.... cant accomplish anything without cash rite? ya....sianz... now it feels to me that im slacking over head liao... need to control... but i need some 1 to look aft me... sianz.... no one at home can don that at all.... my sis is actually now thinking of "changing "boyfriend... thi point makes me feel that she is a bloody slut.... me mom..... forget it.... my bro is nothing better... his in proverty as me.... sianz man.... my claz mates are all better than me... i wanna outshine ppl!!! i wan ppl to know that i am melvin, i am wat kind of person... but so far till now 3 wks liao still only afew ppl know me..... sux man.... bored.... relationship is crap la to me now... i have 1 principle about dating, which is "never make your women pay/treat/buy/borrow $$$"... yes... im those very DA NAN REN kinda ppl.... cant blame me... i grow up wif 2 women.... the influence cause me to be mrather indepent by myself.... not to relie on ppl untill it is necessery... lol....now damn bored too... moved hse, get laptop.... but feels like ppl whom i know are leaving me 1 by 1.... im slowly being pushed out of ppl's mind 1 by 1... sianz.... ppl don seem to cherish friendship too.... i cant understand ;people now a days.... its like get new frenz push away old frenz... atlease my uually click still haven forget me... but a few ppl have.... sad.... sianz... is this whats left aft being together for up till 4 yearsa???


i really donno.....

i wanna know.....

i wanna feel that kinda of feeling again.....

that long lost feel .......

that makes me feel like i really am living on this planet.....

Monday, June 06, 2005

lesson sux...OUCH!!!!!

don understand any fucking shit out of my lecturer's mouth.... falling asleep soon,.....lol..... tired... now really donno wat to do... wanna go kick boxing but like ill not put any heart there like that.... donno why... now feel even more lonely aft moving hse... really sianz... see ppl in np but don feel like talking to them... donno why.... very anti social now.... donno y... tired of the life im living now... donno why is the world lik this or is it juz my fault again...lol.... goes online but seems like every body is always afk... do nno y... reallly feel tired.... cant find any true purpose now in life.... i cant even find the correct direction now.... sianz....

Thursday, June 02, 2005

Gotta Move on wif Life

Seems like every body has taken the first step,and ive not.... damn sianz.... don understand wat my lectures are talking about.... wtf.... now im looking ard the web for bladders and colons.... sianz sia.... so far still only know a few guys.... bored man.... Bty, if any 1 from the bbq committe or ppl hu wants me to go to the bbq,plz know that i not really want to go... unless there is atlease up to 30 person there.... if not its not worth it... some more now start school, juz move hse,plus bus fare damn ex, its not worth my cash to go too.... joined kick boxing...haha... turn u 4 the 1st 1 but din turn up 4 the second 1.... nd go get new pants... if not monday is my sw IS, then tue&thur kick boxing...not enough pants to wear...haha..... tired sia... knowing ppl oso v.tired... but atlease found some guys that share same interest... haha... found another ming geng too...haha...bty shawn u damn good ho!!!toking to girls see me don wanna say hi... nvm.... then lk still as dao as usually.... hey actually i really sorry bout all those stuff i did to u in the past.... but you shoudn't juz shoot me since u cant shoot shawn n mg n u don wanna shoot rain, but seriously this suck ok....bty if any 1 has his msn add plz pass it to me, and oso his birthday is on the 6th of july izzit???...lol..now planning to make it up to him la.... and oso