helpless behind the loud laughter...
heiz, now im really damn tired, after learning what has happened to my brother, i felt an unpleasent twing in my mind, its like im now being infested by something...... it is chewing my brain off slowly....
tired... and sick... now im really feeling that burden on me again.... im really gonna spend more time doing all this things to start patching up all the broken pieces.... all of them....before the time is gone.... and i will have to borrow time again....
atlease, im now feeling better juz by taking a step back, blending in back to the surrounding again.... that feels nice, too used to it already... "creed", the band im now stuck to now... haha, to think im stuck to an english band, not to say that im anti el, but juz that i rather feel that jap is kinda nicer.... thats the beauty of understanding something that i don understanding...
heavy stress on me now, im now the next expected pillar of this family... i have to start buck up and really put in more efford, more thatn juz reading b4 lesson... i have to be certain that this is the future i've choose, coz i have no room or time to make any mistakes for changes or start from scratch, im rather sry to gab, i cant fullfill the dream that we both were discussing b4, now that i feel like im tearing up, from the inside.... some how, the almighty one up there decided to play this joke on me....
Those are now merely the past to me now, merely dreams i have in the past, all those dreams... i am tired, this fragile future im having, is taking my soul away.... i have not really any more to give, but the time i am having now... i wanna be like others, i wanna enjoy and live like the rest... but it seems that i have to walk out of the joy, and choose between pain or despire...
i've no room for other things now, i'll just occupie myself with games to destress... i'll just have to make do with all this now, i cant ask for any more...let me be happy juz for once, thats all i can say in destress....for once....
tired... and sick... now im really feeling that burden on me again.... im really gonna spend more time doing all this things to start patching up all the broken pieces.... all of them....before the time is gone.... and i will have to borrow time again....
atlease, im now feeling better juz by taking a step back, blending in back to the surrounding again.... that feels nice, too used to it already... "creed", the band im now stuck to now... haha, to think im stuck to an english band, not to say that im anti el, but juz that i rather feel that jap is kinda nicer.... thats the beauty of understanding something that i don understanding...
heavy stress on me now, im now the next expected pillar of this family... i have to start buck up and really put in more efford, more thatn juz reading b4 lesson... i have to be certain that this is the future i've choose, coz i have no room or time to make any mistakes for changes or start from scratch, im rather sry to gab, i cant fullfill the dream that we both were discussing b4, now that i feel like im tearing up, from the inside.... some how, the almighty one up there decided to play this joke on me....
Those are now merely the past to me now, merely dreams i have in the past, all those dreams... i am tired, this fragile future im having, is taking my soul away.... i have not really any more to give, but the time i am having now... i wanna be like others, i wanna enjoy and live like the rest... but it seems that i have to walk out of the joy, and choose between pain or despire...
i've no room for other things now, i'll just occupie myself with games to destress... i'll just have to make do with all this now, i cant ask for any more...let me be happy juz for once, thats all i can say in destress....for once....
posted by X-=][BPS][=-X at 9:59 AM
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