Lost heaven

sry, cant continue with the chalet part recently, coz having prob uploading pics...
was thinking again recently... school started... and 2005 is bout to end soon... i cant really say much(again)... but really being thinking... i have lost what i really have wanted for, a heaven of my own... where i always put my thinking to work, now, im being plagued by massive thinking again... while sitting down here...

im now thinking too much that i cant even express all my thoughts well...
im stressing now... i felt like i am having split-personality... or more likely, split-minded.... i can be thinking bout tons of things at one go, such that when my interaction with other people makes me jump into a hectic situation... worse is when i started stressing.... i seem to be toking without thinking again... and getting hot and kanchiong easily... i dunno why, but somethings wrong with me...

last but not lease, ppl having o's, GL HF, thats all i can say, everything is all in u, its a matter of whether u can do it or not.... and mahen, if u read this, cheer up, dun feel so depressed.... u still got frenz to look after ur back...