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-Listening to River-
pretty in a down mood now, juz read throught my old blog, kinda feel the life back then, and the life now, with a very big contrast... i feel so lonely, i dun have any more close friends now, i cant find some one on msn now 2 tok bout my life, neither can i call ppl now to tok, i am really down, i would wish that i have the phone connection then having a laptop... and i would have wished that i were with gab...
every litter things i jotted down on my old blog spike tears in to my eyes, all those joy, fun and pain i got throught, i will never forget, and i will never be able to let it go as theres still something that holds me there, something that i seem to still stuck on, feeling like a fly trapped in a spider's web, i feel hopeless...
looking at the lifestyle now, it kinda sux, theres not really lots of ppl 2 tok 2 now, i feel so restrained, so stripped of my life. theres like thousands of things i wanted to empty it out but cannot do it. i think hiding back behind the curtain is better, atlease the slight warm feeling i get is better than the coldness i get off ppl.... much like a freezing field, the dif is that its perm.
-by_myself-
myself, i cant relie on myself, im too dependent, i feel so unsecure when im alone, "i cant seem to convince myself why, im stuck in the outside", that line rings me alot, kinda remind me of the anti-melvin campaign, except that i have start to miss those days now...
-only_one-
i am giving up, of what im always am, i feel stripped of an important key factor now, i feel like an angel whose wings are crippled.... unable to do anything, the only thing i can do now is call "nothing". ..... the song reminds of minyi, haha, kinda awakard now mentioning her name on my blog, but i can say, she is one person i really loved really deeply and madly b4..... but thats the past now, i haver only a fragile future to look to, i can only hope to look and see if theres any small chance that i can get some joy from the future i have already forseen..... the cracking and collapsing future of mine...
pretty in a down mood now, juz read throught my old blog, kinda feel the life back then, and the life now, with a very big contrast... i feel so lonely, i dun have any more close friends now, i cant find some one on msn now 2 tok bout my life, neither can i call ppl now to tok, i am really down, i would wish that i have the phone connection then having a laptop... and i would have wished that i were with gab...
every litter things i jotted down on my old blog spike tears in to my eyes, all those joy, fun and pain i got throught, i will never forget, and i will never be able to let it go as theres still something that holds me there, something that i seem to still stuck on, feeling like a fly trapped in a spider's web, i feel hopeless...
looking at the lifestyle now, it kinda sux, theres not really lots of ppl 2 tok 2 now, i feel so restrained, so stripped of my life. theres like thousands of things i wanted to empty it out but cannot do it. i think hiding back behind the curtain is better, atlease the slight warm feeling i get is better than the coldness i get off ppl.... much like a freezing field, the dif is that its perm.
-by_myself-
myself, i cant relie on myself, im too dependent, i feel so unsecure when im alone, "i cant seem to convince myself why, im stuck in the outside", that line rings me alot, kinda remind me of the anti-melvin campaign, except that i have start to miss those days now...
-only_one-
i am giving up, of what im always am, i feel stripped of an important key factor now, i feel like an angel whose wings are crippled.... unable to do anything, the only thing i can do now is call "nothing". ..... the song reminds of minyi, haha, kinda awakard now mentioning her name on my blog, but i can say, she is one person i really loved really deeply and madly b4..... but thats the past now, i haver only a fragile future to look to, i can only hope to look and see if theres any small chance that i can get some joy from the future i have already forseen..... the cracking and collapsing future of mine...
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