lesson sux...OUCH!!!!!

don understand any fucking shit out of my lecturer's mouth.... falling asleep soon,.....lol..... tired... now really donno wat to do... wanna go kick boxing but like ill not put any heart there like that.... donno why... now feel even more lonely aft moving hse... really sianz... see ppl in np but don feel like talking to them... donno why.... very anti social now.... donno y... tired of the life im living now... donno why is the world lik this or is it juz my fault again...lol.... goes online but seems like every body is always afk... do nno y... reallly feel tired.... cant find any true purpose now in life.... i cant even find the correct direction now.... sianz....