don mess with me.....

FUCK!!!! i got a serious bad hair done by a hairdresser at my house there,guess wat,i ask for a trim and she make me look like an ah beng now...... crap.... even my sis oso can say that all im short of is juz a picering job.....crap...gonna dissappear for the time being....

I MAKE IT!!!!!!(half way there...)

I MADE IT TO BIOMEDICAL ENGINEERING COURSE IN NP!!!!!this is finally a step closer to my dream........yes... im over my own moon now...haha...being lame but gab is v.sway.... haha he got in to bioelectronics in sp.... while me, rainer(mechatronics in np),clarence(some engineering course in np too) but his in sp ALONE!!!!!!!!!!! not to rub salt in to his wound, but it juz sad that he got in there.....but he went to appeal 2day la..... but.....CLSL went to appeal for MY course TOO!!!!!! OMFG!!!!! i would not want to see him in my class at all..... i would rather demote to nursing then be in the same course with........HIM!!!!!...god must have a sense of humour.... but it is too great on me... but its nice to find out that no one(so far la..) from our school is going to that course.... no one from 4/4 and 4/5(thats wat i think, but really, no one from 4/4 is going to bme)
then aft that no one fr my class as well... haah... that means ill be meeting all new faces there... maybe meet some one that will make me repeat my folly in sec 4 again...haha....but i hope not la.... now since im so close to my goal to being either a Coroner(i'm SERIOUS bout being a coroner) or a scientist, so im not gonna let my dream go away so easily juz by this kind of mistake..... ill not make it any more....plus come on... now that i hav a personal goal and being matured bout relationships crap, im not so easily distracted now.... all i ever wanted to is being wat i want to be, plus now actually i haven found out who i really am, wat i really one in life yet, and wat can i excell in my life... plus i haven built enough responsibility yet.... juz come on... i still cant wake my self up every day morning, i still cant make my self go against my lazyness yet... where can i find enough responsibility to take care of another person.... but hack.... now juz need to be back on track to concentrate...last... CAN ANY ONE HELP ME MODIFY MY BLOGSKIN??????? PLZ........ thx........

some body free me from this boring life.....

im gonna die very soon due to bordem...it so bored la!!!!! every day doing the same thing over and over again....non stop of the same thing blasting at me... like as if im living in a place where everything is a cycle... wake up, eat, go work, break , work, go home, watch tv,sleep, and the cycle repeat again over and over again..... wtf!!!! some more my mom is using my money to pay her medical bills, then im gonna fork money to move house, i might be moving to taman jurong, in the middle of nowhere.... fuck!!!!! im sianzed to the freaking core, i cannot don work.... then some more with a mother that always want her children to "accompany" her, rubbish... more of like wanting her children to"serve" her when people needs their own freedom and free time to do stuff... im so bored la.... she took mc since the start of the second week of march, then it is lasting all the way till the end of this month..... mean while i cant go out, cant do this and that.... everything is being restricted.....i need my own time, i am now in the stage of my life whereby im suppose to be increasing my social circle... but no.... she don like... she rather i die old alone then having any frenzs..... i wanna kill people liao lo!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!! I AM BORED!!!! I NEED MY LIFE BACK!!!! I CANT STAND MYSELF BEING WASTED BY U EVERY DAY WHEN I WAKE UP TILL I GO BACK TO SLEEP AGAIN!!!!! I WANNA HAVE MY OWN DECISION FOR MY SELF!!!!!! IM 17!!!!! NOT 3 YEARS OLD!!!!!DONT KEEP GIVING THE CRAP"THIS IS FOR YOUR OWN GOOD" ANY MORE!!! ITS NOT GONNA BUY ME IN!!!!! I WANNA BE LEFT ALONE!!! LET ME BE BY MYSELF AND BEING MYSELF!!!! IS THAT WRONG AND TOO MUCH!!!!! I WANNA KNOW WATS THE FUCKING PROB HERE!!!!!! WATS WRONG!!!! WHY CANT I GO TO GYM!!!! WHY CANT I GO WATCH MOVIE WITH MY FRIENDS!!!! WHY MUST I STAY AT HOME AND BEING TREATED AS A SEARVENT, NOT UR SON!!!!! AT HOME!!!! WHY MUST I GO EVERYWHERE U GO!!!! I GOT MY OWN THINKING AND IM NOT ALLOWED TO EXPRESS IT OUT!!!! WAT IS WRONG!!!!! WHEN I PAY FOR UR BILLS U STILL CAN USE THE WORD "EXTRA CHILD" ON ME!!!! WATS WRONG!!!!! I CANT STAND IT ANY MORE!!! JUZ BECAUSE IM SILENCE DOSEN'T MEAN IM NOT RESISTING!!!!!!!! I HAD ENOUGH!!!!

either moving west or moving north

YES!!!! I AM ELIGIBLE 2 BUY A 3RM FLAT!!!! BUT FUCK!!!!! CLEMENTI IS SO EX!!!!! 99K sia...... wtf... so ex... my mom can only afford those at marsling at WOODLANDS!!!! WTF!!!! THATS THE NORTH OF SINGAPORE!!!!!!!!!!! how am i suppose 2 live down there sia.... lame.... juz travling time itself is a killer.... plz that is a new place 2 me..... will i mix well in there??? i donno.... unless i m gonna study at nyp... then thats nice... ut i scared of this situation.... i mov 2 clementi but studying at nyp... or mov 2 woodlands but studying at np....WAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!! pissed off..........

i am in between.....

LAME!!!!!!!! THE HDB IS ASKING ME 2 GET OUT OF MY HOUSE WITHIN 3 MONTHS TIME!!!!!! and i can only get another hse.... but we r 2 poor 2 afford a 4 rm while not eligible 2 purchases a 3rm flat... then how!!!! ask me 2 live under the void decks???? live under the over head bridges????? LAME!!!!!! FUCKING GOVERNMENT LAW IN ONLY ALLOWING PPL WHO HAV A TOTAL GROSS INCOME OF 2000 TO PURCHASE A 3RM FLAT!!!!! WE ONLY EXCEED IT BY ONLY 185 BUCKS!!!!!!! WTF!!!! GROSS INCOME!!!!!!!! WTF!!!!! WATS WRONG WITH NET INCOME!!!!!!!! FUCK U!!!!!! NET INCOME AFTER MINUSING OFF CPF WILL ONLY BE ARD 1500 ONLY!!!!! HOW 2 AFFORD A 4RM FLAT!!!!! NO 2 MENTION A 5RM FLAT!!!!! FUCK U HDB!!!!!! ASSHOLES!!!!!! DONNO HOW 2 THINK IZZIT!!!!! WAT KIND OF STUPID ARRANGMENT IZZIT!!!!! FUCK U!!!! AND ASKING ME @ SCRAM OUT OF MY HSE WITHIN 3 MONTHS NOTICES!!!!!! RUBBISH!!!! MOTHER FUCKERS!!!!!! BLOODY HELLL!!!!!!!! MAY U ALL ROT UR BLOODY DICKS!!!!!! KANINA!!!!!! FUCK!!!!!!!

guilt disposal bag and movies... as lame as usual...

haha... recently donno wat rushed in my brain.... went 2 church with limli... twice some more at gwc's gv....haha...lame... the pastor tok about the guilt disposal bag sold in the us... it is said 2 help in taking away ur guilt... the instructions r..
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1. open the bag and put the mouth to ur mouth,
2.take a deep breath,
3.blow all ur guilt in it and immidieatly remove the bag away from u,
4. disposal the bag as soon as possible to prevent the guilt fr coming back 2 u....
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lame is'int??? lame sia.... but its sold at $2.99.... only lame ppl will but it la i think....haha...this week end is booked sia..... sat im gonna go eat dinner with mahen, or maybe gab 2... then decide 1 2 watch hitch or not.... then sun gonna go watch howl's movie again with huixin.....haha.... i watched it once liao actually...but nvm.... the story is quite deep.... i wanna watch again 2 understand it la.....but the story is nice and fresh.... its a good choice 2 watch if u hav watch sianz of other story types.....
the story revolves ard a girl name sophie and the talented wizard howl.... it started off with sophie being atk by the witch of the wild and cause her 2 turn old coz she was mistaken as being 2gather with howl as when her underlings were atking howl they saw him helping her escape....
then sophie went on a journey 2 find the witch 2 help her dispell the curse on her, she found a cursed scarecrow on the way that brings the moving castle 2 her...and then the funny adventure begins here....i should not spoil the story any more la.... its really nice... constatine is not that bad 2... constatine is an exocist whom exterminates the "half-lings" in the mortal realm that hav broken the code... which is either half demon or half angels whom tried 2 fight or harm any human will be sent back 2 where they belong to respectivly....then he found out that the son of devil is trying to reach the mortal realm and turn it in to his own kingdom.... so he tried 2 stop him..... it involves one of the most occult artifact in the history, the spear of destiny... it is a spear head that is used 2 piece between the 4th and the 5th rib of jesus when his being crucified at mt calbery.... the spear head contains the blood of jesus that hold the
power that can change your own destiny......it is real......

me and the long kang and the floor.....

i wonder if i am getting sway recently... aft getting such a fabolus result..... haha... must be a balance between gd and bad luck la..... was on my way home 1.... then the rd so dark that i cant see the satupid un covered long kang..... and i got one foot in 1 foot out...... fall flat ont the ground and gived mother earth a gd warm kiss...... it sux...... coz i got a very big and deep cut on my feet......OUCH!!!!!!! its bleeding like fuck la...... ass... then knock my hand, my shoulder or my waist..... so pain la..... ouch... cant stand it..... i was trying to numb myself fr the pain by switching my music fr 20 till the max 25....... numbed my senses la..... esp if its lp's hybrid theory.....haha... was listening to lying fr u at vol of 25.... ns sia....... then cant even get anything done at all that night......coz the pain is killing me like shit........ i hav 2 sleep at a fixed pose or i will lie on my injured part.....pain till the core...... course i hav chossen is the biomed course at np.... coz its the best choice.... it allows ppl 2 opt to biotech if they did well in their first year.....ouch... the injury is still v.painfull...... but i can take it..... its juz physical... not like mentaly injured... that takes long time to heal...... espically those pain sustained fr relationships...... it real hurts ppl alot... cant stand it..... the pain will come back everytime u recall it... no matter how u 4get it... they r still there coz forgotton memories does not means that they r lost 4ever.....coz actually i belive memories are like a chain.... they are all linked... thats y when u recall, it recalls other things back 2... so when u recall bout something... that might chain back 2 the times u feel hurt and suffer the pain again.... this sux big time........... unlike the physical scar... when they fade off... they mearly left a scar showing that something new hav tak over the damaged area... and u will not feel the pain any more..... but u will still feel pain, feel sad, feel anger, feel all the same feelings u had b4 when u recall it back...... the pain, the suffering, the embressment...causing u 2 feel hurt again... thus felling hollow and in ur self..... u donno wat 2 do..... its sad... and i donno when then there will b a solution 2 cure this kind of pain......

My results were out.....

I PASSED!!!!!!!!!...... still cant belive it sia.... this is my result...
EL: C6
COMBINE HUMANITIES:A2
GEOGRAPHY:C5
MATHEMATICS:B3
SCIENCE(CHEM/BIO):A1
P.O.A:B3
CHINESE:B3
CL.ORAL:DIST
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i really still cant belive that i could ever pass my maths, some more i hav being getting a straight 8 since sec2's first common test..... cant belive i can even get a 3!!!!! omg!!!! its like as if a miracle
happened on me....ya.... so far still choosing my courses.... ma fan sia.... so many choices when u did quite well....... f...... donno wahere 2 go.... and haven receive my sing pass yet... wonder how others did....... hope all's well..... only noe that me and gab is aiming the same course......