Elune has shined her grace on me...
true... it wont b back to wats like that b4... now it dosent feel like last time when we guys are laughing 2gather... lol... coz of my stupid mistakes... true... and now adays... family problem is rising every day... i will always get a does of nagging from my mom bout my bro, my sis or me... im so sianz...(ppl who know me knows that i cant take nagging well...) sianz.... URG!!!! lesson is getting drowsey.,.. but getting on track... slowly understanding everything... maybe im gonna find gab 2 study maths wif him... glad still got a friend that knows his maths well that i can approach....
1 thing of course is that im starting to wake up at 9 every dahy.... its like...i dunno y... slp at 12 or 2 oso same... 9 woke up...wtf.... shag.... liao.... and oso... now sch really nothing to tok about... plus im starting to panic... hows life gonna be when i grow up... im so scared that i will step in to society with no skills that can grant me my rice bowl....paniking...
and oso has being influenced by lots of factor.... i start to think that its oso important 2 get a ger... but... i said already... i dun hav the factors... so all i can do is dream.... but... dream 2 much is not good... need 2 get pratical.... and my alter-ego kept enfersising on me that its not good to get a gf now.... it might tag my studies down.,... i dunno... i cant really plan for myself...
i have no planning skills... i cannot think properly... i sux...i cant even torelate myself so much some times that i really feel like jus jump down from this 9th floor building and end it early... intead of it to happen later...i am so depressed... i cant do anything at all....
sometimes... i envy that parents nag bout kids studying and stuff.... not bout sibilings and money issue... i wanna break out of this shit!!!! i feel like im really gonna burst out like a real dynamite already.... my mind's gonna drive me crazy.... sometimes i really wish to stop my brain from functioning.... thats y i indulge in game so much... it can lift me away... away from all the pain and sorrow... i cant face a book 2 handle my feelings... i cant pour all my feelings there... only gaming can relieve me of it... it sound like a drug... but i simply cant get it off.... i dunno y...
and oso... friends are really ppl i seek comfort from... coz i really cant find it at home... i really envy when u guys receive calls from ur parents asking u guys wat time going home,or like get emails from them.. all i ever get are phone calls to ask me 2 get this ofr do that.... or asking me wat im doing now... or demanding y i dint pick up eariler when i having Cca or exam... i feel so lonely.... all by my self.... my sis cant do anything... coz all she does is commanding me to do this and that.... like im her slave... knn... same 4 my mom... my bro best... ignore every thing...
last but not lease...
im juz gonna start rotting for my work and gym wif gab during the holis.... lol... dunno wat to do 2molo... gonna go comex wif him... gonna go escape from my mom's off... lol..haha./...
1 thing of course is that im starting to wake up at 9 every dahy.... its like...i dunno y... slp at 12 or 2 oso same... 9 woke up...wtf.... shag.... liao.... and oso... now sch really nothing to tok about... plus im starting to panic... hows life gonna be when i grow up... im so scared that i will step in to society with no skills that can grant me my rice bowl....paniking...
and oso has being influenced by lots of factor.... i start to think that its oso important 2 get a ger... but... i said already... i dun hav the factors... so all i can do is dream.... but... dream 2 much is not good... need 2 get pratical.... and my alter-ego kept enfersising on me that its not good to get a gf now.... it might tag my studies down.,... i dunno... i cant really plan for myself...
i have no planning skills... i cannot think properly... i sux...i cant even torelate myself so much some times that i really feel like jus jump down from this 9th floor building and end it early... intead of it to happen later...i am so depressed... i cant do anything at all....
sometimes... i envy that parents nag bout kids studying and stuff.... not bout sibilings and money issue... i wanna break out of this shit!!!! i feel like im really gonna burst out like a real dynamite already.... my mind's gonna drive me crazy.... sometimes i really wish to stop my brain from functioning.... thats y i indulge in game so much... it can lift me away... away from all the pain and sorrow... i cant face a book 2 handle my feelings... i cant pour all my feelings there... only gaming can relieve me of it... it sound like a drug... but i simply cant get it off.... i dunno y...
and oso... friends are really ppl i seek comfort from... coz i really cant find it at home... i really envy when u guys receive calls from ur parents asking u guys wat time going home,or like get emails from them.. all i ever get are phone calls to ask me 2 get this ofr do that.... or asking me wat im doing now... or demanding y i dint pick up eariler when i having Cca or exam... i feel so lonely.... all by my self.... my sis cant do anything... coz all she does is commanding me to do this and that.... like im her slave... knn... same 4 my mom... my bro best... ignore every thing...
last but not lease...
im juz gonna start rotting for my work and gym wif gab during the holis.... lol... dunno wat to do 2molo... gonna go comex wif him... gonna go escape from my mom's off... lol..haha./...
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